15 August 2007
I give!
Posted by Momma under: Thoughts .
Out of control… a completely foreign feeling to me. I thrive on the known! I need to know that things are planned and goals are set and this is the way the direction I am going. But then this thing called “Life” thinks it has some say so… Just to say you know Rachel, it doesn’t always have to go your way. Oh yeah, well who said?
I have an ideal, and forever I am trying to pursue that. An ideal on my level of happiness, my children’s happiness, the type of woman I strive to be, the type of mother I aim to be, my health, and the level of peace that I know comes from Him. Oh I fall short all the time, but for some reason I deal better with that, because I did it. It was not due to someone or something or some unknown that lead me there.
This week has been a trying week for me, simply because I had to throw up my hands in a couple areas in my life and say “For heavens sake Rachel your not in control this time”. Just sitting back now waiting for that peace that will come. In the not knowing the outcome… how will this or that turn out, oh you better believe I need tons of peace!
Another thought I have been thinking about this morning… I wonder why when things completely out of my control happen… Do I then take as mine. As if I should feel responsible, or there is something I could do to make that person better/right, or this thing go away… I guess it is all pretty simple in that I can not control everything in my life, no matter how hard I try. And you know what… I am sure the harder I try, the more He will make sure I know that I am not in control. That makes me smile…
I am grateful today for not being in control of these certain things in my life to which I am speaking to… For I know that if I tried to “fix” them… I could never do as good a job. So I am giving up, and giving it over. Just remind me this next week 
One Comment so far...
daddy Says:
28 November 2007 at 2:32 pm.
I know you know, but a dad just has to remind you sometimes (as our Father in heaven reminds all of us) the only true peace and contentment comes from Him.
And doesn’t it feel great when we come back to that realization and give it back to Him?
You cannot count on man, for man/woman will fail you, but you can always count on Him.
You know one of our prayers for each of you every evening as we prepare for bed is that our Father in heaven will open your hearts to hear him calling, and that each day you might grow just a little closer to Him. Now I don’t have any influence as to the methods He might us to open your hearts, so those down times in our lives may be just that urging of the Holy Spirit to get us to relenquish control.
I love you and know He is watching out for each of you.
daddy